When I read the history of a
merciless tyrant, or the dark and the subtle machination of a
knavish designing priest, I could on the instant set off to stab the
miscreants, though I was certain to perish in the attempt.
I have frequently fatigued myself by running after and stoning a
cock, a cow, a dog, or any animal I saw tormenting another, only
because it was conscious of possessing superior strength. This may
be natural to me, and I am inclined to believe it is, though the
lively impression of the first injustice I became the victim of was
too long and too powerfully remembered not to have added
considerable force to it.
This occurrence terminated my infantine serenity; from that moment I
ceased to enjoy a pure unadulterated happiness, and on a retrospection
of the pleasures of my childhood, I yet feel they ended here. We
continued at Bossey some months after this event, but were like our
first parents in the Garden of Eden after they had lost their
innocence; in appearance our situation was the same, in effect it
was totally different.
Affection, respect, intimacy, confidence, no longer attached the
pupils to their guides; we beheld them no longer as divinities, who
could read the secrets of our hearts; we were less ashamed of
committing faults, more afraid of being accused of them: we learned to
dissemble, to rebel, to lie: all the vices common to our years began
to corrupt our happy innocence, mingle with our sports, and embitter
our amusements.
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